hitam putih vs warna-warni

comeback?

2010-02-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

a totally forgotten blog. until now. hihi. activate NOW

my sunday

2009-07-12T22:55:00.005+08:00

lepak2 @ central market

life intern+kl

2009-07-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

i just bought my own wireless broadband, now i can surf whenever i wish! haha. and i guess its time to finally update blog yang dah bersawang nih. =p

internship

dah sebulan++ started internship @ klcc. i have to admit, mmg kadang2 rasa cool dapat intern with petronas. i know most people say intern dkt klcc boring,xde keje sume but i beg to differ. yes, mmg sometimes you tend to get bored in the office doing nothing, tp actually you are the one who choose not to do something. there are a lot of things to do, resources are all around you lah! its up to you to look for it.

besides, how come klcc can even be boring? food lover like me could enjoy so many foods-tu baru dalam suria! Paling kurang pun boleyh window shopping after 5pm, free-read dkt kinukoniya or just lepak2 depan tasik klcc tuh. sangat nice =)

living in kl

all this while, my life has been simple. sekolah duduk asrama, uni pun all stay in-campus. that is why im excited to finally have a taste of the 'real life'. living in a small flat in the city, sharing together with 5 dear friends- what else could i possibly hope for? im lovin it right now.

yeah, living in kl has it own set of challenges, and everyone knows, but, i actually feel grateful because i myself is experiencing these challenges. All the cramming in LRT, rocketing food price etc. Those things taught me alot more than i anticipated. i trully am grateful.

so many stories, maybe in later posting. huhu.

caffeine

2009-05-14T02:29:00.002+08:00

i know caffeine can help you stay awake.
i've seen people doing it since - forever.
and yet i've never ACTUALLY tried them ( u see, im a milo person =p)

well,
until today.

the time now is 2.36 am. wayyy to late for me,
but instead of snoozing like always,
im practically 'dancing'....
my eyes are as wide as they can be....

i guess
a cup of late night of coffee every single day
for another week wont hurt.
at least until all the exams are over.heh

the.exams.are.coming.again

2009-04-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

lecture weeks dah tamat.

study week baru starts.

final exams from 12 to 22 may.

adele - chasing pavements

2009-04-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

i just love this song.and her so-called 'broken soul' voices...

i've made out mind
dont need to think it over

if im wrong i am right

dont need to look no further

this aint lust i know (aiiiieeeeoo..) this is love

but if i tell the world

i'll never say enough

coz it was not said to you

and thats exactly what i need to do

if u end up with you

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place

should i leave it there

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up

and fly around in circles

waiting as my heart drops

and my back begins to tingle

finally could this be it

or should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place

should i leave it there

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads nowhere

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where,

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place

should i leave it there

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads nowhere

or would it be a waste

even if i new my place

should i leave it there

should i give up

or should i just keep on chasing pavements

should i just keep on chasing pavements

ooooohhh

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where,

or would it be a waste

even if i knew my place

should i leave it there

should i give up

or should i just keep chasing pavements

even if it leads no where

hunting places

2009-04-12T10:44:00.004+08:00

19/4/09:
6 weeks left before internship begin, and yet, we haven't found a place that we could call 'home' for the next 8 months. So, considering the time that we still have, minus exam weeks and all, we figured yesterday was the best time to start our seach (plus, monday is holiday in perak).

And so we went.
honestly, i thought it's going to be easy.I was wrong.

Since we never had any experiences searching house for rent, I especially, was cluelless on how to even begin. Luckily, my dear friends were more 'proactive' than me..haha. We found several ads promoting house/room for rent. We called several of them.

The first one. We called, and the owner gives all the details. It sounded good, in the phone. We said we wanted to see the house (its actually a flat). We met and he took us to show the place. Along the way, we thought this was perfect, after hearing everything he said. Wrong again.

Even before we entered, i personally was very suprised to see the building," RM 500/month for a place like this??" (again i have to say, this is my first time searching a place in kl). It got worse when we entered inside.I kept on pretending as if i like the place, nodding all the time . The others did the same.

We searched again. Whenever there were ads, we called. Some were either too expensive, or too far away.

Second place.It was quite far. Far enough that we accidently took the wrong lrt route!..haha sengal. The conditon of the house was fine,better than the previous, but the surroundings really2 make me uncomfortable.

You see, I'd never lived in a city before. Seeing so many people, trying to live in a same place. Kids were everywhere....
Every wall was covered with vandalisme....
All these caught me off guard. At that point, i kept thinking about how grateful i should be towards my parents, my life...

We took a break for awhile. Then, my friend got a phone call.Its from a young lady, only a few years older than we are. He actually had already contact her few days ago, and told that we were coming today. She said she was available and could show us her place. We were pretty tired but we decided to go. That's the best decision we did.

When we first met her, we could tell she was good. The flat that she showed us wasnt bad at all, considering what we had seen all day, this was definitely the winner. Its not too shabby, the surrounding was cosy, easy access to food, transport. It was perfect for me. Heh.

We spent the rest of the day at klcc, where I bought myself a gorgeous necktie, hehe. And so we went back that day feeling relieved now that we finally have a place to live. =)

challenges

2009-04-05T12:20:00.007+08:00

challenges are thrown to us every single day, so we can be better than last time.
too little challenges make us weak, stagnant, hopeless..dry without passion.
but
too much challenges bring nothing but depression, self-pity..disgust.
too much of failure can crush that last piece of hope remains within.

sometimes i do wonder when, will all these horrible experiences go away. *sigh

updates

2009-03-19T21:40:00.002+08:00

midsem break has FINALLY arrived.
after a straight 9 looong weeks, living on the run, keeping tabs with everything, all those endless reports...no point listing them in here. hah

ok updates.

1. utp internet service has gone one step BELOW WORST. its unacceptable. Everything connected to google ( gmail, blogger etc.. ) cant be open! how insane is that?? dah la gmail n gtalk tu boleh kata 99% utpian guna utk communicate with each other. cehh. harapkan wireless yang macam chipsmore. kejap ada kejap X ada .

2. engineering team project aka etp. unbearable. punca no 1 sem ni kadang2 jadi psychotic x tentu pasal.

3. family - baru dapat tahu my adik been offered to enter kisas. mom's really happy, ada jugak la anak dia nnt boley jadi ustaz =p

4. internship - lega dah dapat placement offer. honestly, a bit shocked cause it came earlier than i expected. x start applying on my own pon lagi ( habit procastinate ni masih menebal dlm sanubari..haha). x kisah sgt tempat kat mana as long as it's not in perak. i really2 need to step out of my comfort zone.

dah update. hah.

internship hunting

2009-03-02T20:46:00.003+08:00

first try :

truttt....truttt.....

lady a:hello?

me :owh hello, hi . i'm fazrin from UTP. I'm calling regarding the application for industrial internship placement at your company...

lady a:hmm..which email address you sent your details?

me :owh no no, i havent send anything yet, i just want 2 ask some questions..

lady a:okey

me :well, i just want 2 know to whom should i send my resume and all, at which email address?

- bla bla bla.......

....

......

me :well, tQ so much. btw, this is technip geoproduction sdn bhd right?

lady a:err, no. this is berjaya holdings....

me :err what???

lady a:yea, i'm still wondering where you actually got this number anyway...

*silence

me : owh okkey, i'm so2 sorry then, bye. *malu beb

second try:

trutt....trutt...

mr b : hello?

me :yes hello..hi sir, i'm fazrin from....

mr b :yes fazrin is it? is this your number? 6...2..8...bla..bla..bla..., correct?

me : err, yes2 its correct..

mr b :ok. can i'll call you later?...

me :err...sure..

tuuuuuuttttt.....
....
.....

*err what just happen??? penat je bwat skrip dalam BI. cess...

the perfect weekend

2009-02-28T12:48:00.003+08:00

whenever Friday's approaching, my sprit soar.
i know by then, the weekend has finally arrived!

i still remember,
STAR was like a ghost town on Sunday-evenings...
people were sleeping. only a few were wide awake...

you practically wont hear a thing,at all.
you'll felt some sort of freakishly-serene atmosphere..ahh.

i wish i could felt that same kind of peace again,haha...~

site visit

2009-02-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

saya bukan orang sains.

definitely.

hari ni, dapat pergi tengok sendiri operation terowong kat PLUS highway.

mmg menarik. real life engineering...bukan lagi dalam texbook je. =p

tp

after seeing all that

terfikir, can i see myself doing this kind of stuff?
big machines, remote places, that same old routine....

its not that bad actually, it just not..me.

haih..
*continue wandering thoughts while indulging my Cornetto..yum2

menjual diri?

2009-02-12T01:55:00.003+08:00

tajuk *nonsense so jangan fikir bukan2 !

i have 2 days before i need to submit my resume 4 internship.
but i still have a lot to edit.

writing a resume is NOT that easy,
hello, you are trying to promote yourself!

you try to cram all those things you've done these past years...
make yourself look good...
so that other people can judge you through only 2 or 3 sheets of paper!
takkan nak tulis cincai2 je kan.

thats what i meant by jual diri...

2009-02-09T11:41:00.003+08:00

i learned something valuable yesterday :-

If YOU want to be ..................................

(i.e engineer/doctor/human being etc)

1. THINK like one!

2. ACT like one!!

lastly
...
....
..........

BE like one!!!

messy state

2009-02-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

i'm not a big fan of politics
i never was.
and i never will....i guess.

i'm not org merah...
or org hijau...
or org biru...
definitely not org roket...

.........

but all these political games really mess things up.
what happen to perak right now is downright confusing,

lyrics-laskar pelangi

2009-02-03T13:20:00.005+08:00

suka sgt lagu nih.
lirik simple tapi meaningful.

Laskar Pelangi by Nidji

mimpi adalah kunci
untuk kita menakluk-kan dunia
berlarilah tanpa lelah
sampai engkau meraihnya.....

laskar pelangi
takkan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
warnai bintang di jiwa....

(chorus)

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia
selamanya.........

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita
hooooohohohooo.....

laskar pelangi
takkan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi...

(chorus 2x)

laskar pelangi
takkan terikat waktu.....

lab moments

2009-02-02T16:38:00.002+08:00

i never imagine

that i'll ever find myself thinking about p. ramlee's movies during a lab session.

but then again, there's always a first for everything....hah

" dia cucuk sini , cucuk sini , cucuk sini ....."

hilarious

e.t.p.

2009-01-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

etp is hard..

i know it's hardwork. but this is TWICE as much of a burden than i had imagine!

its only week 2 now, and we already have problem. i mean, we have no idea where to start! urgh.

btw, etp stands for engineering team project.

sindrom 'AWAL-SEM'

2009-01-19T17:36:00.006+08:00

sindrom 'AWAL-SEM' termasuklah :

-straight g class walaupun still 20 minit awal!

-confident venue lecture betul tapi last2 silap masuk kelas orang laen...

-berebut nak cop slot utk lab tapi x sampai sejam nak tukar plak!

- ayat " sem ni nak buat betul2!! " confirm selalu dengar...

untuk perhatian:

sindrom ni hanya berlaku pada minggu 1 & 2 shj. sekian.

slow

2009-01-19T06:36:00.002+08:00

its good to be back..

errk..

x jugak. internet lembab!! itula utp yg kukenal..hahaha

hampagagas btul...ngah3

its OVER..~

2009-01-18T00:03:00.005+08:00

it's already 12.03 am
and i'm still not done with my packing...yet!

argh. sgt lecehh..
packing and repacking all over again..
every 6 months!!..blargh.
naseb baik la utp ku terchenta dekat...ngah3...

aiseyh,
i'm going to miss all these carefree, no-worries holidays... a lot! a lot! a lot!
i'll miss my tv..
having no 8am class to rush to...
aaaaaaaaahhhhhh......~ *sigh

anyway, too much of good stuffs aren't always the best..
my head has been empty for a while now..hua3

erk, still much to be done..got to stop now.

2009

2009-01-15T17:25:00.000+08:00

RESULTS ARE OUT!!

naseb baek it turn out OK.
yang penting UP dari last time. paling takut kalau jatuh. fuhh....~

now,baru rasa semangat nak start- 3rd year!! woohoo.. (excited la sangat)
puas dah rasanya cuti kali nih.

sesi packing barang starts NOW.

the one when its nearly weekend...

2008-08-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

salam.

its friday night again, time sure flies faster than ever. Here i am, sitting in my room all night. i wish i have any reason, anything so that i dont have to be here. But then again, i prefer to keep myself cozy in my own bedroom...

Lately, i was filled with so many ideas until i cant really figure out what my exactly wants. It seems that i desire so many things, ALL AT ONCE....eager to learn html, css..all those web design thing. At the same time, eager to learn about those financial things i.e. stocks and all that. Then, my interest in Photoshop and dslr still in me, thinking when will i get my hand on one of that Nikon dslr...

There so many thing i want to know, to learn EXCEPT my studies. So ironic!! I wish i have that kind of feelings when it come to ee. Im confused! I really am..I cant possibly be good at all that, cant i? Is this can be considered identity crisis?? haha...not knowing who you really are and what you want...is that it? I really have the slightest idea now..arrgh

i just wanna sleep and forget these madness of mine...for a while.

The one after a long absent

2008-07-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

salam

for so long, i'd abandoned this blog. its not that i'm out of ideas but most of the time, i find it difficult to transfer the thoughts in my mind into words. Realising that, i began wondering how on earth those good authors could find their choice of words, and turned them into lovely novels, memoirs or even a business guidebook.

currently,

i've been back to utp, for my 2nd half of my 2nd year. This time around, i do feel i've been here for quite a while now. Most of the time i only see people from younger batches, which i cant recognised their faces. Not that i feel old or something, but it does shake things up a bit.

I love books(generally). Books can give you more than you can imagined. Books can be your motivator, teacher and a friend than can be on your side 24/7...( this may sound like i'm a bookworm but trust me, I'M NOT!)
Just recently, i've learn that the only way to conquer my fears is to face them. Do not afraid to make mistakes bacause The biggest failure one would ever make is to never make any mistakes. Kinda cool, isnt it? hehe..

it's nerve wrecking!

2008-05-13T14:10:00.001+08:00

hey

tomorrow my first paper..very nervous right now. but at least, i THINK my preps are OK. there're still holes here and there, but i guess i'll be fine. i hope so!

but what kills me the most is that i'm dying to finish these off as quickly as i could and move on with my holidays...hahaha. cepat la weii..~~

there you go, i did my update..hehe.back to work!

the one with the wacky wednesday...

2008-03-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

heyt..

wah. i've been away for a while now...hehe( macam dalam lagu 'bubly')..reason would be for the pas 2 weeks, i'm constantly trying to keep pace with my works. also, owh well, there's nothing interesting worth telling actually...

yesterday was my wackiest wednesday ever! why? i had my DSD test, and both my events (hf and electreX) happened to be at the same time! first, my test, argh!! what pissed me off was that,what he toldus in class is quite opposite from what he gave in the test! haish...

well, at least electreX had finally finished, even i barely get the chance to know the committees a lot more..

for a long time, i always wondered why i'm more easy going with the girls than the guys. in electrex 4 example, my dept was all ladies..haha. there are guys in the other dept but they're all classmates...and i'm the only male outsider..hah. well, when i think about it, i guess the main reason is that girls are expert in the thing i weak at : TALKING... they do all the talking while i just listen, make some sarcastic comments and just laugh...i'm not saying that i'm being insincere but i actually feel confortable, even my stupid jokes are laughable enough.hehe..

compared to being with the guys, i just not into football, online games or cars( but i'm not a cissy ok!haha), so i find it hard to connect to them...talking about EPL and all...weird huh, being in all-male school for 11 years but still...haih..pelik2..

maybe i should find a way to make it work...

the one when the holiday is over...

2008-03-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

heyt.

midsem break was over. and it went so deym fast! i feel like yesterday i packed my stuff and finally slept on my own bed. and now its over. back to business...ngaa...
every time i entered the campus front gate, i'll always feel sort of like there is heavy burden fell on me. i know too well that all those workloads, are ready for me..ceyh. hate it. it's killing me...hah.

the election fiasco finally stabilize itself. not quite actually, but i 'll just ignore those stuff for a while. .talking, thinking and discussing about it wouldnt change anything now anyway. let the politicians, academicians do all of them..haha. * its their job!

i'm soo not in a mood for tomorrow class..arghh. i want to sleep, watch tv and eat all day long...hua3

the one with the gim...

2008-03-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

heyt

i had a BLAST tonight!! i had fun with the guys. haha.. improV best!* x pasal2 pegi gim lepas tuh eventhough sepatutnya its ladies night...keh3

i was not in a mood to study at all, despite Numet test on thursday..ngaa..test lagih..aduh.

homesick attacks! right now, my mind seems to be only consentrating on the holidays. with these images lingering my head.... my comforting bed, endless tv+sleep+eat..huhu...

currently listening to : no one(alicia keys)

the one where the old nightmares came back...

2008-03-03T10:45:00.000+08:00

ello...

i just had my most disturbed saturday-yet. supposedly, i should only have one koQ class, but instead, i had 1 class, 5 hours lab and 1 test!...gaaa..ON SATURDAY!ceyh..

but thankfully, i had a blissful sunday, haha...or so i thought.

we had another ph meeting, and apparently, they decided to do another career seminar-like events this april! arghh...why did everything has to be BIG ! All those cs times was quite horrible, eventhough i admit, there were some happy parts and yeah, i learned the most from it. But, to face that again,this semester... i dont know...

the one when I overslept...

2008-02-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

hey

first time this year, i overslept, and miss my class. thats quite and achievement actually, considering that last year, i cant even count how many clasess i skipped because i slept. haha.

its 11.27 pm now, and i'm hardly covering much for my next test..arghh..at this point, i feel campus life is soo boring. nothing much except all those endless workloads...ngaaa. and i thought by joining clubs and all will help but i dont know, seems more like a business to me. not pure fun..

i know, part of it is actually my fault. One of the main reasons i love to join all those stuff is because i'm hoping to get to know new people. Yes, i did. but it just end right there. All that left afterthat is a nudge, or a nod when we met at the streets. totally not cool..haih.

once,my friend told me that he thinks the reason why is that because i'm being a snob. well, to be honest, he is quite right about that. But what he dont know is that WHY i'm being like that in a first place. There's always a reason why people behave the way they do...and i, i have my own reason.

oh well, i'm just not in a mood of thinking all these right now. My brain have already crammed for the day, and to think that the next 3 days will be about STUDY-TEST-HOMEWORK only make it worse...

the one when weekend was soo boring...

2008-02-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

salam.

this is my third attempt at writing something here but my works just seem to be a major roadblock! =S

the one with the african bucket

2008-02-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

salam.

just came back from my 'driving lesson'. yup. although i had my P license for more than a year now already, i still suck at it. kah3 ( what on earth a guy suck at driving huh??) .fortunate enough, adli was so kind to help me to deal with it. thanks mate! =P

my CNY holiday had been cut short and for what? NOTHING. supposedly, there would be a meet up on friday but it got canceled! how i wish i'm still at home...huhu..thankfully, UTP = 24/7 of internet! hehehe..

all this while, i thought i'm quite good in english. how wrong i am!

i was on my way out, when suddenly an african guy asked me " bucket? " i didnt understand, and continue to stare blankly at him. he showed me a pail and repeated " have bucket?" i thought he asked me if that pail was mine, and i said " not mine", but he continued to say something like " you- ...bucket-... 20 minutes". i got it. i took mine in the bathroom and gave him. but even I couldnt get my words right. i said something like " you just put it back there..err here..."

and today, i am ashamed with myself..a bit.haha

the one with the shopping

2008-02-03T10:00:00.000+08:00

hey

just came back from my first ever early morning jog, with my friend. thanks to UTP, of course. the jogging pathway was awesome. ( the fact that it made me exercise make the word 'awesome' is like ' awesome x100!)...

yesterday was my day out. went to ip and jj. i was into the idea of watching movies but unfortunately adli was not very into english movies. i gave up. at first, i kinda frustrated, coz it seems that we dont have anything in common when it comes to the idea of shooping. my school buddies, on the other hand, would be the best companions to go shopping together. we would be watching movies, bowling and having all those delicious McD/KFC and all....basically we always had a great time going out...

but i guess, i was being selfish after all...i cant expect other people to change according to my wants/needs. if i do that, in the end i'll get upset and more frustrated. it wont happen. it is me who have be able to change myself accordingly... it is how the world works actually...

so i calm down and get over it. and instead of draining my energy by being angry and ruining my friendship, i actually had a good time yesterday....hah.

the one with the perfumes...

2008-02-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

hey

yesterday i kinda had a sleepy start. class at 8 am is far too early 4 me. owh well...
i kept my mission in my head. be interested in others...

clasess ended at nearly 12 noon. so i headed to my room. on the way back, i saw alen and we stopped to chat 4 a while. beside us was a booth selling all kind of perfumes. i accidently spoke loud enough about those for the sales lady to hear us. i was kinda embarassed.

i decided to cover up my embarassement (hahah) by going to the booth. i started to be interested in these perfumes. it kinda easy because the sales lady was eager to show us her products. i made some intentionally jokes just to see how would it work. it did. the lady was fun and we had a great time eventhough we just buying one of them. (i didnt buy any though..hehe. alen& adli bought one each..)

i spend all evening sleeping.hahah

the one with the elevator

2008-01-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

as i said. i'll try to be more interested in people from now on. lucky me, coz even on the first day, i could already see how easy it was to be interested in others....

i was on a break between class, so me and my friend, adli went to the cafe to grab something to eat. Unfortunate for us as there was a long line of people waiting to pay, and we only had like 1/2 hour b4 our next class...

adli wanna go somewhere else, but i dont feel like going with him so i said that i'll just go to the class. but the class( on the 2nd floor) was occupied at that time so i decided to just go down to stay on the ground floor....

at the elevator, there was this makcik cleaner(as utpian calls them...), moping the floor in front of the lift. normally, i'll ignore or at most, i'll smile to them. but today i say 2 myself "Here's your chance, BE INTERESTED IN OTHER PEOPLE!! "... and so, i started to ask her...

me : (smiling) mak cik da makan?
mak cik: (nodding & slightly smiling...) duduk mane?
me: owh, btu gajah..dekat je...( more smile)
makcik : la...dekat je, boleh balik ari2 ye..
me : haah..haha
makcik: boleh le jumpe mak hari2...
me: (smile even more...)
makcik : anak makcik yang sulung pun belajar lagi...kat kedah/perlis( im not sure..)..jauh, xla selalu balik...
me: owh yeke

at that point, i already in the lift and the door started to close, and i have to say goodbye. i know she wanted to tell more....

me: ok la makcik, pegi dulu ye...
makcik: yela..

i know the story was so simple, hardly interesting at all. but this single act left a deep impression on me on how a simple question "makcik da makan?" would turn into a friendly conversation...wow

thats make me eager to find out what would happen tomorrow!

pilot

2008-01-31T16:15:00.001+08:00

this is NOT my first blog. in fact, i already had like 3-4 before this, but all is closed now. so why open some more?

my intention to open this blog is solely for my purpose.this blog is a place for me to keep the records of my every day-to-day encounters with my family,friends, aquaintance, or even strangers...the action i take and the reaction i make during these encounters.
i'm determined to put everything i read/learn about HOW TO WIN FRIENDS AND INFLUENCE PEOPLE into action. to see for myself whether these things works or not...

lesson 1: interested in other people if you want other people to be interested in you.

so, first lesson is to be interested in other people...i guess i'll try it for a week and look at the results...